Music

Here I am, in awe of some musicians and their genuine talents. There's chemistry happening inside my heart and I'm feeling a mix of emotions. There's a party going on inside of me and I can only express the experience through my music...

Thinking Eternal

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:16-17

Passion?

I really found something that I absolutely love to do. I'd be the happiest person on Earth if I can do this for a life time, or maybe a living. How far am I willing to go to make this happen, though? I think when I am truly willing to do anything for this, I can call it my passion. Perhaps, the reason why I can't confidently say that this is my passion is because it seems so far away from me; it seems unreachable. But... that's how everything has been working in my life; I managed to reach certain places I never thought I would. So, there's hope. When will I start believing in myself?

Secret

I have a dream. It seems impossible to reach at the moment, but considering my journey to dreaming this dream, maybe it can come true.

I cannot fall asleep.. I wish I were asleep, though.

God's grace is really amazing- how gentle and how loving. I sit here, feeling like the luckiest person on earth, because I have a Heavenly Father who is almighty.

I just read 1 Corinthians chapters 1-4..... "[Paul] planted, Apollos watered, but God gave the increase. So then neither he who plants is anything, nor he who waters, but God who gives the increase" (1Cor 3:7-8).

God just gave me the greatest peace; this is definately something powerful that the world cannot offer. The past 2-3 weeks, I've been learning a lot about the Holy Spirit from John, Acts, and 1 Corinthians. I'm so encouraged by God's promise of the Holy Spirit; the Spirit lives in me! It's clearly written in Acts 1:8 that "[I] shall receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon [me]", and so I find confidence in knowing that the powerful Spirit lives inside of me. Ooh wow, how well taken care of, we are! Thank You and I praise You, God of love.

This is why I am able to stay committed to God- He does not give up on me.

I just watched X-Men Origins: Wolverine and it was really fun! The story-line was really good... I'm impressed. I thought it was funny how Daniel Henney came out as Agent Zero and he died so soon.

I had one crazy day today. I left home for my English class at around 1:20PM because I didn't have my two earlier classes. I was in a hurry because my final portfolio was due at 2PM.. Guess what, I forgot that my car was out of gas from the night before, and I ended up having to drag my car to the gas station- literally 10-15 mph. That was scary; I was just begging God to not let my car stop in the middle of the road. Hahah wow what a trip. I made it to class 15 minutes late, but my professor was waiting for a few other students. Phew! What would I do without grace. 

School is over next week! I'm finally finished with classes; finals are next week though. I want to go on a road trip over the summer... San Diego or San Francisco sounds fun. Close enough but different from LA(?)

This is kind of embarrassing if anybody actually reads this........ just a thought.

I've been thinking, what is God's calling for my life? More and more, I'm convicted that God is calling me as a worship leader... hmmm... What am I supposed to be doing? I'm studying to become a teacher, but is this what God has planned for me? I'm really not sure at this point.

To be continued...

Okay so I haven't written on blogger for a long long time.

I should probably be sleeping right now; it's 1:32 am, but I feel like talking to myself on blogger.

There's been a lot on my mind, lately. I learning a lot and growing a lot, which is really good! I'm really enjoying reading the Bible these days. I never realized how fun and interesting God's word is! If you want to read a book that's packed with drama, thrill, romance, comedy, and what not, read the Bible!

And I'm really enjoying writing songs, too! I haven't written songs for a couple months and I started working on it again. Hm, now that I think about it, I think my walk with God works correspondingly with how much I write songs. I just started praying over one of the songs I wrote several months ago because it's exactly how I feel these days. The song is title-less but it's about me hungering for God. The pre-chorus and the chorus says:

My soul thirsts for You

My flesh longs for You

So I have searched for You

So I have called Your name

My soul desires to know You

For You to dwell in my heart

Maybe if God permits, I can start leading worship with my own songs; that would be such a blessing. Wow.

I'm getting sleepy now. I want to go to bed but my stomach is not feeling so good after eating 2 greasy $0.99 tacos. I had a great time with my fellow college friends tonight at Riverside. We spent time reading/discussing the word and praying for those that needed prayer. What a blessing that I can be involved in a community that's centered on Christ.

Bed time. Good night.

I think I'm crazy for talking to myself.